It's All in the Attitude

I’ve been thinking I should update the blog for weeks now. The problem is that there isn’t much to report. Scott has had 2 biopsies since last update – both a 1 – fine. I guess there is the news that he has been completely off prednisone for a week now!! That sure took a long time. He will have another biopsy in 2 weeks to make sure there is still no rejection after stopping prednisone.

Hopefully after that Scott can go a whole month or more with no biopsy. His neck is looking bruised and full of holes at the site where they do the biopsies. It will be nice to give that a chance to heal up.

Tomorrow will be a year and a half exactly since his transplant. I am having a bit of a hard time updating because I feel a little ungrateful. I know I should just be happy that Scott is still here and doing relatively well. Sometimes I have a hard time not comparing our circumstances to others. Other guys and girls we know who have had heart transplants after Scott have competed in triathalons, climbed mountains, walked 5 miles a day and accomplished so many wonderful physical feats. Scott doesn’t even have the energy to take the stairs, go for a walk or work out at all and he had to cut back on work hours when he’d hoped to increase them.

I don’t want to be a negative person. I want to look on the bright side. I want to be grateful. Sometimes it takes a lot of effort though. Sometimes I just want to whine, rant and complain and say how it’s not fair. Something always happens to humble me when I go to that place. I am made aware of others who have more difficult circumstances than me. In the past month I have definitely been reminded of how much harder it really could be. I have been inspired by the resilience of others in difficult circumstances.

I will continue to work on making the right choice. I CAN be grateful. I CAN be positive. There IS a bright side. It is true but it takes effort to see. My job is to make the effort. I’d better get to work.

Today is a great day. My family is together. (how was that?)