I’ve been thinking I should update the blog for weeks now. The problem is that there isn’t much to report. Scott has had 2 biopsies since last update – both a 1 – fine. I guess there is the news that he has been completely off prednisone for a week now!! That sure took a long time. He will have another biopsy in 2 weeks to make sure there is still no rejection after stopping prednisone.
Hopefully after that Scott can go a whole month or more with no biopsy. His neck is looking bruised and full of holes at the site where they do the biopsies. It will be nice to give that a chance to heal up.
Tomorrow will be a year and a half exactly since his transplant. I am having a bit of a hard time updating because I feel a little ungrateful. I know I should just be happy that Scott is still here and doing relatively well. Sometimes I have a hard time not comparing our circumstances to others. Other guys and girls we know who have had heart transplants after Scott have competed in triathalons, climbed mountains, walked 5 miles a day and accomplished so many wonderful physical feats. Scott doesn’t even have the energy to take the stairs, go for a walk or work out at all and he had to cut back on work hours when he’d hoped to increase them.
I don’t want to be a negative person. I want to look on the bright side. I want to be grateful. Sometimes it takes a lot of effort though. Sometimes I just want to whine, rant and complain and say how it’s not fair. Something always happens to humble me when I go to that place. I am made aware of others who have more difficult circumstances than me. In the past month I have definitely been reminded of how much harder it really could be. I have been inspired by the resilience of others in difficult circumstances.
I will continue to work on making the right choice. I CAN be grateful. I CAN be positive. There IS a bright side. It is true but it takes effort to see. My job is to make the effort. I’d better get to work.
Today is a great day. My family is together. (how was that?)
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Melanie,
ReplyDeleteYou are so right .... today is a GREAT day.
Speaking of attitude, here is one of my favorite quotes about "ATTITUDE" ...... and, it is so very true!!
Our lives are not determined by what happens to us, but how we react to what happens; not what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude can cause a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events and outcomes. It is a catalyst ....... a spark that create extraordinary results.
Melanie~
ReplyDeleteYou are wonderful, and you have been an answer to some of my recent prayers. Isn't it interesting how easy it is to get discouraged even as we can and do recognize the blessings around us? I was especially touched by your last comments in this post that focused on what your job is, what the job is of all mothers. We are to search for hope when it isn't easily found, we are to share that hope with those around us, and we are to grow hope within our own family. We can do it, and we do it now. It is nice to hear that others understand some of those discouraging times and have found the strength to press forward through them.
Thank you my cousin. I love you, your example, and your wonderful family.
Melanie,
ReplyDeleteI had bookmarked your blog awhile ago and then never checked it out. Reading your most recent entry, I tear up. I know that this is such a long hard journey. Scary and unknown. And it sounds like your husband is not where you and he would like to be. But be ever so grateful that he is alive. You have had a year and a half that you couldn't count on. You have this life together. Hopefully, you will have many, many more years together. Enjoy every minute. I know you are, and I know you need a place to vent. Been there and done that.
Just enjoy. Enjoy it all.
Suzanne
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